Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Ignoring the obvious and then some...

My jeans are tight, not in a uncomfortable way, but in a I shouldn't be noticing them way. The last month has seen more work dinners than I ever thought possible, three courses, wine, more wine. Quick lunches, ham and cheese toasted sandwiches, toast, toast, brownies, and more wine. Working this weekend in a hospital I took a moment to hop on some scales, and was horrified to see 109 appear, I'd put on 4 kilos in less than a month. WTF?! But then I knew, I just kept at it, in totally the wrong way. Took all my stress and emotions out on food. And I still ran three days a weeks, but now a week and a bit out from a half marathon, I'm not looking at a decent time anymore, I just want to finish. All my self esteem kind of got thrown out the window.

I get to the same point every year or so, where things go a bit crazy, and I finally work out enough is enough. I can't do this anymore. I have the same excuses, again and again.

I finally have worked out my exercise niche, I love exercising, LOVE IT. Yeah I get lazy some days, and I've worked that I work better when I am training for something, so I don't have many exercise issues anymore. If its not raining, I run outside, if it is I run inside at the gym.

So to the food?

I know what works - and its lunches that do me in every time.

Being organised.
But mainly its about being organised.

I don't want to have the same bad habits at my new work, we have biscuits at morning coffee every day, and from day one I have not had any, I don't want to get into that habit.

I want to get my weight down to under or as close too 100kgs by my 29th birthday which is a little over 8 weeks away. I can do it.

I don't know what I so scared of. I really don't.


Sue said...

The biggest problem I find at this time of year - particularly for those of us who live in Wellington - the cold makes me crave carbs! Especially toast! With butter! And pasta!

Running Kiwi said...

Keep at ... its a journey, and journeys have ups and downs :)

So, so hard though ... and you know, I keep telling myself, this shouldn't be so hard - but it IS. Keep at it girl, the exercise is half the battle, so you're half way there already!

Rand(Om) Bites said...

Yep, I'm with Sue, the cold makes me crave carbs as well and not the good carbs. Are you keeping a food diary? When I do this, it helps pin point my dangers zones because I also put how I'm feeling that day etc. So with you on the exercise front and not in an unhealthy obsessive way but I do feel a little toe-y if I haven't done anything for the day.