I've been seeing a counsellor for the last few weeks. Nothing in particular pointed me in that direction, just lots of things both in my present and very much in my past also. It's been a really hard process, things that I have kept at a distance I'm finally starting to think about, and at this stage it just plain hurts, it's constant.
And it's made me question so much, of where I was, where I am, and where I really want to be (which to be honest, I have no idea where that is.) I just know, somethings, they need to change. I don't know where to start or what to do, that's where the counsellor helps.
I have seen two before this, more to do with health issues. But I forgot what a relief it is to talk to someone without judgement of any kind. It used to be something I would never mention to friends nor anyone else really, unless they were really close to me.
So, now you know.